Meet Nashville native Carlos Vara this southern boy is Thicc and has the voice to match .We are obsessed with him ,and his new single "Impossible". We sat down with the blonde coifed crooner to talk music, love , pride , and all things Vara!
WHAT DOES PRIDE MEAN TO YOU
Pride to me is the celebration of how far we’ve come in our community & also rallying together to raise awareness on LGBTQ+ rights & how much further we need to go. On a even more personal level... this month to me is so special. Growing up, I never thought in a million years I’d ever be able to come out & be happy. Pride to me is celebrating how far I’ve come & the fact I get to be my true self FINALLY.
WHAT ADVICE WOULD YOU GIVE YOUR 15 YEAR OLD SELF
I wish I could’ve told myself that it was all going to be ok. I know that sounds a bit cliche but growing up I was genuinely so scared & ashamed of my sexuality. I thought I was going to have to hide the fact that I was gay for the rest of my life. I grew up a first generation American pastor’s kid in a conservative southern town.... I was never really exposed to LGBTQ+ community growing up. The only thing I thought about it was that it was “bad” & “sinful”. I used to cry myself to sleep at night because I thought I was going to go to hell. I just wish I could go back in time & tell myself that I was going to be ok & that i’m not doing anything wrong & that I’m worthy of being love and loving myself.I still tell myself that everyday... it’s a process.. buts life has gotten so much better ️
HOW WAS IT COMING OUT TO YOUR PARENTS
I knew going into it that it wasn’t going to go well. I’ve always been close to my mom growing up and I knew that no matter what she would love me but I still knew it would be hard for her to understand right away. Me & my dad have never been close. When I was a kid he was a nightclub owner & then when I was about like 7ish he had a pretty extreme conversion & closed down his club and became an evangelical pastor. We’ve always been very emotional distant from each other and have never really connected or gotten along well. One night couldn’t take the pressure of keeping my secret anymore & I was too scared to tell anyone in person so I typed up a coming out letter & posted it to my facebook. I was 18 & had just moved to Nashville.Being the super religious person that my dad & Some other family members area I knew that they would freak out and they did. It’s been a really hard journey full of lots of therapy since then. The past 3 years since coming out I’ve spent finding myself, learning how to love myself, and learning how to not hold anger & shame in my heart. Me and my dad still aren’t close.But me & my mom talk pretty much every other day and she is amazing and loving. And I’m so happy how far she & I have both grown since then. The other day her I my little sister sent me a happy Pride text & it was the cutest thing ever ️
WHO ARE YOUR STYLE ICONS
Ooooh there are so many & it’s constantly changing but I think some constant inspirations are Andy Warhol & his superstars. I love that whole era & spirit of time & fashion & pop culture.Give me The Factory, Give me Studio 54, Give me NYC 80s queer scene. I like being inspired by those eras and throwing in my own 22yr old millennial vibe to it. I love loud energy. But also some grunge. Maybe some sparkles. Some rocker vibes too.I’m honestly all over the damnplace when it comes to fashion. I have a shopping addiction. I love it all. I could literally talk about this & clothes for forever.
IF U COULD HAVE DINNER WITH ANY MUSICIAN DEAD OR ALIVE WHO WOULD IT BE
Oh shittttt.... probably Freddie Mercury. He’s a huge inspiration of mine & i would give anything just to be in the room with him & experience his presence & energy. Love him so much... his melodies, lyrics, music, fashion, such a fucking legend.
DID U SEE ROCKET MAN AND BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY AS A QUEER ARTIST WHAT DID THOSE ROC DOCS PUT IN UR MIND
YASSS. I’ve seen both! Both movies are so inspiring & made me cry like a baby. As a queer artist I could relate and empathize with so many situations & emotions portrayed in the movie. I felt heard on so many levels but also so fucking inspired & fired up to keep on creating music. Freddie Mercury & Elton John are 2 of the most legendary musicians of All TIME. I adore everything about them from their style to their personality to their music. I think movies like these are important because I think it helps people understand the gay perspective a bit more and how sexuality affected the music of artists that literally shaped & changed culture. It also gives LGBTQ+ youth (*and everyone) a movie that will make them feel empowered & inspired & seen. We need more gay rockstar movies :) & more gay sex scenes. Not only because I like them but because it needs to be normalized
TELL US ABOUT THE NEW SINGLE IMPOSSIBLE
Impossible is song I wrote about me & my relationship with myself. The chorus is “impossible. Im so impossible. You’re so impossible. We’re so impossible. Why you gotta rain on my parade screaming that you hate me?”This song is literally me tearing myself down for continuously tearing myself down. I’ve always severely struggled with a low self esteem & self love. When I wrote this song I was just like a year into coming out & I was at one of the lowest pints I had ever been. I was living in Nashville & working full time serving tables & trying to figure myself out & explore my sexuality for the first time... while still being completely broken and still not comfortable with myself. I didn’t like anything about me from my personality to the way I looked and felt “impossible”. I wrote the first part of the chorus alone in my room at 3am on my keyboard. It’s a very personal & vulnerable song for me. Writing & recording it was a major part of my personal healing process
WHAT CAN WE EXPECT ON THE ALBUM
This album is about me & the journey of my self discovery.... which still continues. I’ve been writing songs for my album that I never knew I would actually be able to make since I moved to Nashville at 18.
I just turned 22..... so I have a lot to get off my chest haha. I think one of the things that is special about this body of work is that I’ve been fortunate enough to create & collaborate in Nashville & LA. Both very different BUT incredible songwriting scenes & both have influenced my music a ton. Expect lots & lots of emotional wrecklessness in form of Bops & Ballads.
WHAT IS IT LIKE BEING QUEER IN NASHVILLE,AND HAVE U EVER DATED A COWBOY
There’s this country song called “save a horse ride a cowboy” .. honestly so inspirational lmao. But nooooo... No cowboy yet, but I do have cowboy boots & hat if that makes me seem cooler.Being queer in Nashville is a unique experience. We don’t have WeHo or lots of LGBTQ+ outlets but the ones we do have are AMAZING. Nashville is actually a pretty progressive city.. *obviously we still ways to go... but I genuinely think that we’ll get there. Nashville has been a great city for me to come into my own & figure myself out while not being overwhelmed with a huge busy city. I think we definitely need a bit more LGBTQ+ representation & advocacy in the Nashville music industry ... but I do feel very excited to be apart of the generation & people that are pushing forward and speaking out and being unapologetic about their sexuality. It’s important especially for us Queer folk who are from & live in the South because most of it is very conservative & religious.I have high hopes though. I’m always speaking love & full equality & acceptance into existence.
WHAT NEXT FOR U THIS YEAR
Lots & lots of things. I have so many songs on the way to be released and so many songs I’m recording and so many songs I’m still writing and we’re working on the live show.. coming soon !!!!!Expect more music & visuals & more of my emotional crazy ass. It’s all just beginning ️Hope y’all will come & join the Vara party.